And why do i live like this? There is an old adage: "Those who cannot remember the past are condemned to repeat it." i pose to you this: your past influences your present and those with pasts are directly bound to them. Knowing the past is not an insurance that you will not repeat your mistakes. So is it not better to live unhindered by the past; to be free to make choices which do not lead to regret?
So how do i keep in touch with long distance friends? If you were to ask i most likely respond with one of my favorite jokes: friends what are those? Or maybe i would stammer: you have friends! What's is that like? But it is not a joke i have no friends. On the other hand i also don't have any enemies. i don't want to treat someone i have just met any different that someone i have known for years. Honesty, kindness, generosity, and love are not things i reserve for a specific circle of friends. These are not things from which anyone should be arbitrarily included or excluded from.